What i believe is Understanding

To understand something, the first reality one needs to face are the limitations of having understood it. Nothing that we understand about, seems to exist in the same way we understood it. No matter how clear we consider ourselves about a matter, there is always another moment, soon after it, when we have a doubt. The motive behind this effort to understand is to get clarity. Eventually it is this clarity that helps us live in peace, with us and with our surrounding. And in that context, understanding something is one the most important needs. The proof of its relevance lies in the comfort we find in us every time we manage to convince ourselves that we understood something. To some, managing it mutually makes it even more worthier. 

To an extent, I have come to realize that the clarity that we seek and find, is as good as the belief we have in it. Belief is a tricky word. To validate something outside of you by the strength of your belief inside doesn't seem rational. But if you were to accept the limitations of your capacity to understand, the weakening reality that belief truly is a stronger force, dawns on you. 

The pursuit to understanding should always end in reality. That is the intent. Having that cut short by belief is near equal to giving up. In perspective though, whenever we have thought we managed to understand something, we have unconsciously replaced our understanding with a belief. So it can probably be said that Belief is that roof or root which Understanding needs, when its stationary.

Jealousy

Jealousy has seemed to me as one the most natural of uncomfortable feelings. It must be one the most tribal of instincts. You can tell that from the way it happens to you. You realize of it only post it has occurred inside you. There is an element of helplessness to it. So I went about collecting quotes around it. The intent was to open myself to its effects and causes, and find out those uncomfortable and unfamiliar places they come from. And in the process, liberate myself, to some extent, with the only way one can...the knowledge of it

“Resentment is like drinking poison and waiting for the other person to die. ” ― Carrie Fisher

“Men are jealous of every woman, even when they don't have the slightest interest in her themselves.” ― Jan Neruda, Prague Tales

“Jealousy isn't a pleasant quality, but if it isn't overdone (and if it's combined with modesty), apart from its inconvenience there's even something touching about it.”

“Anger, resentment and jealousy doesn't change the heart of others-- it only changes yours.” ― Shannon L. Alder

“It was one thing to accept I couldn't have Dimitri. It was something entirely different to realize someone else could.” ― Richelle Mead, Frostbite

“Envy is for people who don't have the self-esteem to be jealous.” ― Benson Bruno, Evergreens Are Prudish

some nights

What helps, is the 4AM peace,
With some whiskey in a coffee mug…or tea.

A movie that makes you think of only the movie,
And its soundtrack that fills the space around you.