Monday, August 26, 2013

Immortality - Milan Kundera

I had previously read one novel from Milan Kundera, Unbearable Lightness of Being, which I couldn't do justice to. I had trouble relating to the writing and its complexity. Immortality didn't feel that way. It was a good thing to not give up on the author and pick another one of his books on impulse. My instincts didn't fail me this time.

The manner of story telling in Immortality is multi-dimensional. While the entire novel is as planned as any, the narration has been made to appear impromptu in parts. There are times when author interacts with you as an author, and picks up an inspiration while in the midst of his passionate explanations to you, and then, he moves back from you to make a story from that inspiration. In those moments the book resembles a live act of sorts. That is a different experience.

The uniqueness to story telling did come with an explanation at one point. Just about the time I was grappling to figure the flow of this book owing to its erratic narration, the author intervenes himself and expresses his belief on how a novel, the way he sees it, should be written such that it isn't possible for it to exist in any other form other that the novel itself. It should not be possible to make it into a Movie or Tele or a Play. Though, by the time I reached this point of the book, l had realized that I would need to re-read the book to completely understand the narrative and better appreciate the creative layering.

The experience of reading this book is like being made to watch a play where the author uses two different stages to narrate, connects those in principle, takes some time out to come sit next to you and discuss his intent and the dynamics of the characters...for which he uses examples from history, and uses fresh cues from the discussion back into the story. And on some occasions, also finding a logical reason to slip himself into an Act.

Some of the best stories I have read or seen have either contained grey characters or have narrations that use opposite ideologies and debate each of them convincingly. This novel too does that to a good extent.

In all, the book is a mix of story telling, historical perspectives, point of views, and detailed analysis of the most smallest of feelings and behaviours. To the extent that at some point I felt in a real life situation, one could call it over analysing. In the form of a book though, it seemed like an indulgence.

There are many reasons to read this book. but what it says through a review on its cover isn't one of them - "it will make you cleverer, maybe even a better lover. Not many novels can do that - XYZ from GQ Magazine".

My reason for anyone to read Immortality by Milan Kundera would be to experience the different ways to interpret a human condition. The rationalization of the basis of it. To experience the variety in self-reasoning, and the somewhat futility of it. It is a journey of human mind, if not of the general kinds, most certainly of the thinking ones.

Friday, August 16, 2013

Of separated nations

Little after midnight on 14th August, I heard a faint music from some house nearby – Husna @ Coke Studio India; an apt song for the hour that separates the Independence of two separated nations. 

A day before MTV desperately attempts for the third time to make CokeStudioIndia even a shadow of CokeStudioPak, here’s to the only good song that came close in attempt, and to Music, that had never separated anyway…

Saturday, July 13, 2013

The Trivedi Trail

Signature music trail can be considered monotonous, and if good, a melodious journey from one album to another. More obvious when it comes to an Artist, this in a Bollywood sense mostly means composer's out of creativity. However, when it came to Amit Trivedi, i drifted from one album to another, unaware initially, seeking the other good song that sounded similar, and realizing how each were a Trivedi composition.

Musical trail is an experience almost meditative. There are few things as simple, yet capable of giving you the sense of calling, as does the feeling of that next song you want to listen to when you hear one.

By the time i reached the second song of Lootera - Zinda, i was reminded of my last love for a similar song, the ones from Udaan. It only struck me few seconds later that they were both composed by Amit Trivedi. Once into the second song of Udaan, the title track, i knew i wanted to listen to that song from DevD....Aankh Micholi.

I was on a Trivedi trail..

P.S - If DevD music were an audio cassette, i would have heard till reel were scratched to half of its original quality. My pleasant surprise, however, was discovering second half of Saali Khushi, almost 4 years later....that brass band-orchestra-jazz sounding piece. Hope you have experienced it too. 

Tuesday, July 9, 2013

Not the same Yesterday

Some days you look behind you, lying subdued, lost, yet alert.

In a mixture, the collective effect of the irony of life, its humor, the somewhat sense and Pointlessness strikes you.

 And you know..that you are never going to be like the way you were yesterday.

You see more, but it affects you less. You can sense an emotion which you don't feel.

 It is like seeing your own eyes blank, that are hiding an ironic smile.

Saturday, June 29, 2013

What i believe is Understanding

To understand something, the first reality one needs to face are the limitations of having understood it. Nothing that we understand about, seems to exist in the same way we understood it. No matter how clear we consider ourselves about a matter, there is always another moment, soon after it, when we have a doubt. The motive behind this effort to understand is to get clarity. Eventually it is this clarity that helps us live in peace, with us and with our surrounding. And in that context, understanding something is one the most important needs. The proof of its relevance lies in the comfort we find in us every time we manage to convince ourselves that we understood something. To some, managing it mutually makes it even more worthier. 

To an extent, I have come to realize that the clarity that we seek and find, is as good as the belief we have in it. Belief is a tricky word. To validate something outside of you by the strength of your belief inside doesn't seem rational. But if you were to accept the limitations of your capacity to understand, the weakening reality that belief truly is a stronger force, dawns on you. 

The pursuit to understanding should always end in reality. That is the intent. Having that cut short by belief is near equal to giving up. In perspective though, whenever we have thought we managed to understand something, we have unconsciously replaced our understanding with a belief. So it can probably be said that Belief is that roof or root which Understanding needs, when its stationary.

Saturday, June 22, 2013

Jealousy


Jealousy has seemed to me as one the most natural of uncomfortable feelings. It must be one the most tribal of instincts. You can tell that from the way it happens to you. You realize of it only post it has occurred inside you. There is an element of helplessness to it. So I went about collecting quotes around it. The intent was to open myself to its effects and causes, and find out those uncomfortable and unfamiliar places they come from. And in the process, liberate myself, to some extent, with the only way one can...the knowledge of it

“Resentment is like drinking poison and waiting for the other person to die. ” ― Carrie Fisher

“Men are jealous of every woman, even when they don't have the slightest interest in her themselves.” ― Jan Neruda, Prague Tales

“Jealousy isn't a pleasant quality, but if it isn't overdone (and if it's combined with modesty), apart from its inconvenience there's even something touching about it.”

“Anger, resentment and jealousy doesn't change the heart of others-- it only changes yours.” ― Shannon L. Alder

“It was one thing to accept I couldn't have Dimitri. It was something entirely different to realize someone else could.” ― Richelle Mead, Frostbite

“Envy is for people who don't have the self-esteem to be jealous.” ― Benson Bruno, Evergreens Are Prudish

some nights


What helps, is the 4AM peace,
With some whiskey in a coffee mug…or tea.

A movie that makes you think of only the movie,
And its soundtrack that fills the space around you.